Accepted

           Well it is official I am now a Zhonger, I will be teaching in the fall at an elementary school. I am so excited and a little blown away. I thought 8 years ago it was big that I was going to school in Florida...now I am going on an adventure to another country. Yea for cute Asian kids, panda bears, and bubble tea ( the last one I haven't tried yet but its on my bucket list). When I go to China I can officially take that off my bucket list!

           Well for now that is all this is a ridiculously short blog post, but I wanted you my few readers to know. I will hopefully write a proper blog post soon, good night one and all (or good morning if you are across any "ponds").

Pain

        Well it has been a not so good last couple of days. I did go with Jessica to little Bavaria and we had great food, and shopping, and delicious cupcakes... not to mention fabulous weather. But in the midst of it all I was in a lot of pain. It something that we try to avoid in our lives, but if we just take it full face and learn from it we tend to enjoy life more and take things for granted less. My ribs have been spasm-ing a lot lately and I'm not sure why. Unfortunately once it runs its course in my body I am so exhausted from the pain. Of course this was also the weekend that things with China picked up pace.

          So most of the weekend I just kept thinking "there is no way I can go to China like this" I am in dire need of a miracle before the Father sends me anywhere. I know that I have to think with a renewed mind, but moments like that it is very difficult not to be negative and doubt instead of having hope and faith. I am a little (and when I say a little I really mean a lot) overwhelmed with everything. If I am accepted I have a quite a bit of money to raise plus figuring out all of the paperwork. I know the Father has everything under control but I am here on earth and cannot see what He does....kinda jealous there.
I am starting to not plan my future anymore because whatever I plan usually doesn't happen anyway. This post sounds kinda down sorry about that, just need to vent all of this stress that has been mounting since last Monday.

Delivery

          Well it finally came after 7 long years of school I now have my diploma. It feels like a giant weight has finally come off of me. I have finished one adventure only to be plunged into the next. My life is never boring I'll give you that.

              I was surprised how fast I heard back from Zhong, so now I feel like its a made dash to get my passport, all my paperwork and visa done. Not to mention my Mom freaking out over cost of everything. I really just wanted a normal summer where I could relax and enjoy my accomplishment of finally being a college graduate...well I can kiss that goodbye. If I am accepted into the Zhong family I hope that I am not so worn out from this summer that I am "worse for wear" so to speak.

             Well I do have tomorrow and my adventures with Jessica in Little Bavaria. Yea for chicken dinners, cupcakes, and sunshine! Then of course there is this weekend that is full of baseball, yea for the boys of summer...maybe this game(s) we will win! In the meantime I will try to stay calm and enjoy the time I have stateside for now knowing yet again the Father will direct my steps and provide for everything. Why does this trust thing seem to get harder rather then easier...does anyone else notice that? I think I will enjoy me freedom by reading some of this great book called a "A Sheetcake named Desire" its a mystery and I am hooked on another food/mystery series. I will hopefully post more later about my exciting adventures here and abroad.

The Great Unknown

            Well my adventures abroad aren't very abroad at the moment. I am about as frustrated as one can be with Delta, still no paper work and its going on two weeks since they said they sent it. When I call and ask about it I just get a very rude person who doesn't really seem to care and it takes everything in my to keep calm and not be rude back at them. I know the Father has everything under control but trusting Him right now it literally painful, these are some serious growing pains of faith and trust.

              This adventure that started back in 04' doesn't seem to want to say goodbye quietly...no it's leaving kicking and screaming. My life seems to be very extreme sometimes, and I wonder often what its like to have a boring summer or school year for that matter? I still have China on my mind (I wonder if it tastes like wasabi instead of peaches "Georgia on my mind") yes that was incredibly random but that is me I utter the most random things at the most random time.

              Well in other news not related to the saga of my college life it's finally baseball season! We went to our first Loons game last Thursday, we lost but it was still good to see the boys of summer return. My player from last year Christian Lara didn't come back this season, last season we were at the game he dislocated his ankle and it ended up being the end of his career in baseball. So this season we have a bunch of new faces and numbers I have to learn. We have our next game on Thursday and in June there is a weekend that I am taking my friend Jessica and her sister Lauren that will be fun and hopefully I will remember to take pictures and post them. This week I am going with Jessica to our own little Bavaria and we are celebrating the fact that we made it to the end of the tunnel...we survived college!!!! I will have to take pictures then too and post them. It's like going to Germany without a passport and home is very, very close. Plus there are delicious cupcakes....(I start drooling) they are amazing and pretty big they are so good and I need to stop making myself hungry for cupcakes from SugerHigh. (yes that was shameless advertising)

Unrelenting

          Well it has been an interesting weekend. Most of you don't know that I love to write, in fact I have been working on a story since late last year called UnRelenting (yes the r is suppose to be that way.) Anyway with school done I can finally devote more time to actually writing--or that's what I thought when I finished school. Boy was I wrong, I have still been fighting with Delta about my transcripts. According to them everything was sent to Southeastern, but Southeastern can't find any of the paper work and I just want to scream and cry at the same time. Uhggg...this new adventure in trusting the One who loves me truly is really stretching me.

          Anyway I finally figured out how I want to end this book and how to start the next one (its going to be a series of books I hope) Plus once I finish a very good friend from Florida is helping me with editing and Englishy things since I know what I want it to say but have been looking at it too long. Plus writing gives me a sense of calm, which sounds very opposite to what I feel as I write. Normally I am fired up and kinda high stung (for lack of a better explanation) but after I write whatever is on my mind its like all the pressure inside a shaken soda bottle is released.

           This is going to be a short post, but I'll write again soon. Hopefully next time I will post some pictures of my adventures her in the barrenness of the North...no really there are days its like the end of The Lion King and there is nothing to hunt and we are all going to die. Ok maybe not that extreme but it feels like it.

Stormy Weather

          Well right now we are getting a very bad storm, lightning, thunder, down pour of rain. Life can be like this sometimes. You wake up in the morning thinking you will see the sun and it will be a blue skies kind of day...then you actually wake up and its dark like the middle of the night and you are facing a huge storm. I'm glad for storms actually even though I don't always like going through them. They remind us of what is truly important, and of Who should be truly important to us. Then when it passes the One who loves us more then we can really ever comprehend sends us rainbows.

         













         I have come to the end of a very long storm and now I face an unknown future. Yes I am still dealing with paperwork issues...but that is being resolved pretty quickly considering. As I look into the void of unknown I also look backwards at where I just came from-- at one time it was the unknown. Even though I had no idea I was walking into a huge storm Someone else did and He never left, in fact He used the storm to wash away things that were holding me back from my true self. So now I'm standing on the line of a new adventure not sure where it will take me...will it be sunny and blue skies? Will it be another storm just brewing and forming but waiting to strike nonetheless? Either way I know the One that loves me truly will be there, and He will never let me go in the storm or on the most sunny day.

woohoo first post!

       Well welcome to my blog. Life is in transition and I figured maybe writing about it would be fun and educational at least for me. As most of you know life is an adventure grab an inter-tube and go for a ride...I do this a lot. So of the time this is fun...and then some of the time its downright scary! I am at the crossroad that everyone eventually comes to life after college. Now I get to grow up and be a big girl...why does that not sound fun? 

        My biggest frustration at the moment is getting that very expensive piece of paper called my diploma. Paper work is driving my crazy constantly calling either Delta or SEU to make sure paperwork was either sent or received...frustrated isn't a strong enough word for how I feel right now!! This is not to mention that if I want to go teach abroad in say ....China I need that piece of paper. So for now I am looking for a job here state side and not finding much. I remember when I was in  2nd grade and they used to tell us how we would have all these jobs and rainbows an unicorns blah, blah, blah......they lied, I'm disappointed :(. 

        I know through all of this God has a plan even if I really have no clue what it is at the moment. So for now my dreams of traveling abroad are put on hold, but not deleted. This has been a very random post but that's ok, in fact if you decide to follow this blog expect more random thoughts that's pretty much what comes out of my head. For now this is the end of my thoughts at the moment.


~Becka