I am not Dead

This is going to be a crazy post I have been keeping a word document handy to write down my thoughts as we have not had internet for 4 days. Sorry if its hard to follow I promise better updates when I have regular internet!

Bruises and Sweat

9/2/12Well I am moved in to an apartment. Amber and I are sharing until they finish mine. I have no idea when that is exactly but maybe before I come home next summer? Amy (our other Waban) took us for a tour around the school and in the process I slid across the wet floor and bruised my knees up nicely (my legs are so many pretty colors right now). Today is fellowship day (I don’t have internet while I write this sorry about delay of post) I have to say I really miss fellowship at CCC. Moments like this I feel very homesick, but I signed a contract yesterday so I have promised my word that I will complete my contract through June 30, 2013.

I hate homesickness it shows up at the most inconvenient times. I think some of it is because I have very little sense of normal balance. Back home I have a rhythm and here I am very off balance, I need the Friend to help me find balance and a pace to life. I wish autumn lasted longer here then it does, it is so hot here right now there are moments I long for winter. I know once winter comes I will want the heat back, I have to say weather back home is tame now compared to weather here.

Yesterday I found that the human body can sweat more then I thought, Loons games in the summer will seem like child’s play compared to hiking all over Wuhan and then up 4 flights of stairs. My new jeans I bought before I left are already becoming to big I am starting to think that size 8 is not a dream but may soon be a reality. Please be ‘thinking’ on homesickness, a sense of rhythm, and just having my spirit calm. I know for at least the next 10 months I am supposed to be here, I will take next year when it comes. Trying to not be overwhelmed right now but when I feel it coming I remember Ps. 61 if you have the Message that is (I think) the best translation of this passage. Well it’s almost time to catch bus 585 to go to fellowship this morning. I do have a internet port in the room I just have to get an Ethernet cable. Next time pictures of the room, really I will post them!

            9/3/12 I went to Wal-mart for the first time today, it’s a pretty nice store. There are difference between American and Chinese Wal-mart but there are a lot of things that are the same.  I bought a pad for my bed that’s not really very padded and I managed to buy the wrong size so I put it in the middle of the bed and put my sheets over it. Still getting used to the hardness. It’s not really a problem until you make your arm fall asleep and then it’s a problem because there is no give of the mattress so its awkward to roll over with a numb arm. I am still pretty beat up I think my knees may be bruised for a while my right one is the worst because I took most of the force on that knee it hurts when I walk or bend it when I sit. Please be really ‘thinking’ about my knee(s) that they heal quickly and properly. There are mornings I wake up and feel like a rag doll that has been beat up and my fluff is scattered all over the place.  

 Despite my exhaustion I start teaching tomorrow I have no idea what I am doing or even where I am teaching (what room) but apparently I start tomorrow.

9/4/12 Well I am sitting in my office without internet…I think I might go over to Aloha and use their wireless so I can let all f you know what is going on and be able the talk to the outside world. I am so tired, I did sleep good last night the only draw back is that I was ready for bed at 8:30pm and my roomie was not.  I look forward to having my own place where I can go to bed early if I need to and not have to wait until someone else wants the go to bed. It is 9:30am my time and I could easily go back to sleep right now, not to mention that I keep losing my food. I am getting tired of being sick every other day. This has been an exhausting few weeks and I am just getting started. In 10 months time I will be ready to come home just to have a break and get some sleep. I am not really sure how the Friend is getting me through day by day, but He is and I am leaning on Him heavily these days. I have just been taking it a day at a time and before you know it a month will have passed by.

I am hoping tonight I can go to bed early and catch up on sleep. I really am so tired, I am praying this does not turn into a long day.

9/5/12

Well today was a better day teaching and we finally got some material so we can better plan our lessons. I am going over to a friends apartment this Friday night so it will be fun to see her and have some girl time. Anyway thanks for the 'thoughts' they have been great and when we finally get internet in our office I will post more regularly.