I am sitting in my office darkness has fallen over Wuhan for the evening. I am reflecting over this year and everything I have learned about China, life, and myself. Its been quite the adventure... Which makes leaving even harder. Today I was told that the school is not resigning me for next year. I am going back to the States but to be honest my heart will stay here in China. I have no idea when I am coming back. This is when trust can be so very hard, when you cannot see the road in front of you. As hard as it is I have to just hold on the the One who knows where we are going. He must have something is store although I don't know what it could possible be. I am still applying for graduate school to get my TESOL M.A. from Azusa Pacific.
Now I get to look for a job back in the US, that statement alone makes my heart drop. I have started to pack up my things and began to lighten my load by getting rid of anything I don't really need, as I pack my life piece by piece I feel disconnected. I built a life here though small, it was something now I feel like I am constantly starting over again and I find it very frustrating. I can't say that this news surprised me the deck has been stacked against me here at WELFS pretty much from the beginning. They were never really happy with my best and to be honest that's ok, this school is special in so many ways. I have learned a lot here and I will greatly miss my students. There is a group of girls in class 6 grade 3 that I am really going to miss. I may not understand what is going on but I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I can trust my Father, He has never failed me yet and I highly don't He will start now. So in the weeks to come I will soak in my last few moments in China, there will be laughter and probably many tears. So for tonight my dear readers I say goodnight from Wuhan, lets see what adventures the next 6 weeks brings me before I start a new adventure.
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