Shrapnel in my Heart

    Well this past weekend was the last big weekend EVER for Zhong Relations. We had our final good byes and said farewell to each other as we are all starting to leave China this week. It has been a very hard weekend for me, saying goodbye to Wuhan and the amazing adventures I have had here. This week I will be saying goodbye to my students and finishing my packing. By next weekend I will be on track to fly back to the states. This is when it gets sticky ...

   Home is a relative term to me now, I'm not really sure where it is at the moment. Not to mention I am still waiting on APU about my acceptance into the TESOL program. My future is pretty up in the air right now and I really don't know what I 'm doing. So in 8 days I will board an airplane and leave China, these 10 months have gone by way too fast. On the flip side many of the Zhongers are going back to the States so I am going to try to keep in touch with everyone either Skype or if they are close going and seeing them. It would be good for me with adjusting to be able to keep in contact with my China family. I know the pain I am feeling will pass, but I have to warn you I will never be the girl I was before I left ever again. That is something we talked about at debrief was just that your friends and family think everything will go back to the way it was and that will never happen, China has changed you. I will do my best not to talk about China all the time and keep my thoughts to myself. If I burst out crying its probably because I am missing the places and people I met here and came to love.

     For now this is it just a short and sweet post, thanks for your 'thoughts' over the last 10 months they have gotten me through some pretty tough spots. See you all soon ~tears~